the morning train ride, my mourning came by i had to cry out in lonesome spare time on thin air I feel clouded in the sea depart far from me can’t feel my arteries cold numb feeling I’m just done with dealing it’s hard to understand at times I over stand but I can’t reach high only tall as 5 foot still I seek wise speaking to my self in some hard ways having odd days it’s like aww dang it’s a off days still can’t stay long I have to move along switch my habits round frown upside down make my momma proud better notes 2 self shout out brother hines big old light of mines i’m finna let it shine brighter than a diamond brighter than the stars i’ll manage in the mourning breaking through the trauma no more bad karma feeling good up on purpose i’ll manage in the mourning breaking through the trauma no more bad karma feeling good up on purpose

whole world screwed and i’m brutally honest i’m 26 still stuck been living with momma even though i help her out things get harder i promise cause i never been dumped and now i’m feelin like garbage gotta pick myself up through the mystery problems found some way to solve em, even when the shit’s all dissolving but righteous entities be coming in and claiming my vicinity and im the chosen one never did i try pretending be the chemical imbalance just be messin with the chemistry the cycles be conditioned all to keep us in addiction all alone within the friction all alone within the system, trying figure out the picture so we breaking down ourselves, while we cracking down the code we breaking down ourselves, instead of finding ways to cope we breaking down ourselves, so we run away from hope we breaking down ourselves till we far away from home but i’ma make sure that i make up inspire them to wake up get the money fuck a pay cut don’t be silenced by the break up and break out and take out like dominos enlightened like a pot a gold i’m down to go right down the road if it’s how we just bound to go astounding though it’s ugly there’s lessons in it must be can’t be walking feeling musty feeling lost and unlucky i ain’t tell any lies while they living doubles lives I’m just sharing what i know and what i see within my eyes hope you read between the lines ain’t no shame inside my glory all the pain is in my story fuck em if they feeling gory if they sayin that i’m boring or just way too in my ego watching chatting through a peephole I’m just pouring out my heart to my people demons taking over lethal like injections from a needle writing bars just to see through writing bars just to see through i said I’m drowning i’m drowning i’m drowning pro-founded astounding moving mountains a fountain and i’m mounted amounting why they counting

unsent notes i miss spoke I miss wrote i been broke I protect my own heart it’s so hard been so scarred but yet its thrown all in my face and I can’t see the pain you pouring It’s outta my range Need to look inside the mirror and oil my face i could see the vision clearer i’m closer today been a victim to my fear based thinking insane can’t let go of what I’m dreaming get ahold of my faith wake up in my God body keep giving me grace still I’m feeling frustrated in need of my space i keep feeling bombarded renewing my ways i’m anew like the days suns and the rays apart from the cage a particle plane i’m flying away wings spanning and spreading I’m spoiled in vain i’m all in my brain keep sending me hate i send love anyway stop masking the pain unfolding my seams i’m sowing a way don’t drown in the rain floating through space slow down on your pace life is not a race

I let my voice speak for itself without the pressure of depression pressing on the loop while falling deep into compression relieving all this tension while I’m verbally expressive working on my mixes while producing on a message building leverage cause ain’t nobody looking if you never set intentions deep reflections everything that’s up for grabs it’s only if you let it the devil play for keeps so be aware of what you let in soul of reverence mapping out this reference for the outcome I been blessed with sitting on this chair I know the seat is probably melting always staying present for the sake of what is destined can’t be thinking backwards still I’m working towards my bestest yet the best is certainly yet to come a beacon of light that I carry till it’s done and even so who know’s i know my spirit lives on pass the heaven gates time is tickin on the bomb certain that it’s set to detonate staying calm as I meditate